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I
changed the subject and started talking about his "time machine."
He didn't like the term. So far he'd discouraged all talk about his apparatus.
With his vocal-cord problems it was easy for him to leave unwelcome questions
unanswered. He avoided even the general subject of time-travel. He was
pathologically suspicious, even of me, I sometimes thought. I tried again.
Was that all it could do? Just give you
poor flickering images without sound or color and capture old radio programs?
I'd thought a time machine could transport you back and forth. I recalled
H.G. Well's novel, no theoretical difficulties: a kind of nickel-plated
bicycle with strategic crystals and the time-traveler zipped forward and
back at will along the "time-continuum," from dinosaurs to the
death of the planet, saving a nubile girl on the way.
He said that chronoportation - what I called
"time-travel" - was an impossibility, at least for objects of
anything but minimal mass. A microbe maybe but not a man. And even this
exception wasn't sure.
Then you couldn't go back in the past?
He replied, "Mentally it might be possible." Did he mean memory?
I asked. You didn't need a machine for that. No, not memory, he said,
scowling. Something else. He clammed up. "You wouldn't understand.
You haven't got the mathematical basis," he said.
I felt the old inferiority. To prove I
knew a little of what was involved I trotted out the scraps I'd picked
up from Wells and the gaudy-covered SF pulp magazines of the 40s. I said
that in a sense whatever we see is the past and cited the example of the
galaxy Andromeda. To see the two of us chatting here in this ex-garden
right now, inhabitants of Andromeda would have to wait a million years.
"Two point two million," he corrected.
"Andromeda is roughly. Two point two million. Light years away."
With the correction I remembered that he
was the one who had told me the Andromeda business in the first place,
long, long ago. To cover my confusion I gulped down the whiskey in my
glass and poured out more. At an advanced age I was parroting what he
had said at the age of thirteen and was getting it wrong.
Forgetting he'd just told me that chronoportation
was impossible I asked him about travel to the future rather than to the
past. Did we really want to go back and live that sinister mess, collective
and personal, all over again, without the power to change the course of
things? Did we really want even to witness it? The history of mankind
had its ups and downs. Couldn't he, Harvey, pinpoint one of the heights
in the future, something pastoral but hygienic, and whisk us there, to
a golden green time where people got on together, where they could heal
what was ailing us in soul and body, no alimony, no time erosions, where
you lived hale to the age of Methuselah or beyond? Or forever, why not
forever? Something like a walking-over-God's-heaven time, gonna meet my
mother there, ain't gonna study war no more, except it would be on earth.
Couldn't that be done?
He shook his head. He said the future was
purely conceptual. It had no reality. "That's your pulp-magazines
again. The future doesn't exist."
I didn't put up much of a struggle. He
didn't have to knock himself out to convince me. For decades I'd been
believing in no future and now I had scientific confirmation.
The
day we tested it out Harvey edicted a celebration. Strangely: before,
not after. He was so sure of himself. He'd never heard of hubris
("overweening God-defiant pride," I'd defined the concept
to my students). Suddenly after months and months he noticed the
mess. He made Hanna clean up the living room, a very little bit.
She banged all the furniture viciously with the vacuum cleaner.
The dust-bag must have been full or the dirt encrusted because the
machine's passage made no impression on the carpet. She did get
rid of the dish with rice-crispies glued to the sides, actually
took it into the kitchen. I'd seen it there on the table the first
day I came. Now there was a wreath of dried milk as a memorial.
He had her bring out a bottle of
sweet white wine (Lord's Vineyards: the grower's name was Philip
Lord) and three red cut-glass goblets. I vaguely remembered the
goblets from thirty years back. They were dusty and chipped now.
The white wine looked like coagulated blood in them. As I was sipping
the sickening stuff he told me to smile. "Maybe you'll be seeing
yourself. As you were now. In half an hour." The thought made
me feel self-conscious in my movements. I smiled slightly. I wanted
to be worthy of resurrection.
Then we went down into the dim red
light of the cellar.
"Here we go," he whispered
solemnly and the sound built up unbearably. "Look!" he
commanded and pressed buttons.
Tensely I stared and stared at the
dark screen in the darkness.
Time went by.
Nothing came.
Nothing at all.
Hubris.
I began to relax.
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