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Slipping
on a Mossy Log
Forbidden fruit is highest in calories and shame.
I
knew the Ten Commandments and The Golden Rule before I could spell my
name on Big Chief tablet paper. Not just memorized, but absorbed, like
extra ribs in my chest. I was reminded of these credos whenever I saw
others committing forbidden acts. I recalled friends who sneaked into
the cloakroom at school to pop their bubble gum. I remember the gas station
man who always told my Aunt Flossie she needed a quart of oil when she
didn't. Flossie would just smile and say: "Thanks, I'm about to get
it changed anyway." I figured her answer was the automotive equivalent
to turning the other cheek.
I think I did just fine with my list of Eternal
Rules, honoring them to the fullest as the years went by. Yes, all was
close to textbook until that one day at Caddo Lake.
It was 1954, and I was twelve. It was one of
those summers I returned to East Texas, a short vacation away from my
soldier-of-fortune father's duty station in the wilds of Indonesia. Caddo
Lake was a getaway. It was so different from the tropical forests in Java
and the harried and sometimes dangerous life overseas. The lake restored
me with its calmness - an elixir of moss-draped cypress and softly flowing
waters. The glades were so open and inviting, like alleys into a happy
realm I had long since lost. I bathed in the coolness of its brakes, I
tasted its purity. It was the rekindling of my slumbering spirit.
This day, my Uncle Archie had driven me to the
State Park at the lake. He left me with seventy-five cents to buy my lunch
at Big Pines Lodge, a river-rat sort of fish camp and eatery that stood
on the banks of the Cypress River. Soaking up the soft sounds of the whispering
pines, I meandered my way down to Big Pines' pier, a gangplank used for
boarding the Caddo Queen. The Queen was a relic of a paddlewheel boat
that once carried paying tourists down the river into the main lake. It
was a hot August day and my thoughts drifted back to the advent of another
school year, less than a month away. I was reminded that summer was fleeting,
like sleep being interrupted by shards of daylight through Venetian blinds.
The reality was undeniable. I would soon be returning to Java to rejoin
the dozen or so American and Dutch kids who attended the Baptist Missionary
School there.
With my lunch money, I bought an overstuffed
Big Pines hamburger and found a restful spot back on the pier. The river
swept by, curling itself around the cypress knees then dancing away with
its trail of leaves and Spanish moss. At my foot, I noticed a cord tied
to a post on the dock. I pulled at it and felt something heavy on the
end. A stringer of nice white perch? My curiosity bested me, so I hoisted
it up. It was a net-like potato sack
and it contained six cans
of Falstaff beer. Had someone left them there to cool beneath the pier?
Was this a gift from some swamp force that tempted young men with the
stains of adulthood?
Playground rules came to mind. Finders keepers!
Ah, and no one was there, no one to see, no one to tell. I stared at the
cool dripping cans with some stranger's lust. Surely this cannot be me,
slipping into the woods with such forbidden fruit. I found a resting-place
in the forest away from prying eyes. The sweetgum leaves obscured me from
anyone approaching the dock and there were no sounds except the distant
staccato of a woodpecker.
I used my pocketknife to punch some holes and
drank four cans before being dashed away on a kind of magic carpet ride.
My body was vacated as I rose aloft. I could see everything below, as
if perched among the tallest trees. The view beneath me had the look of
a miniature diorama, a western scene, cowboys and Indians battling each
other around a string of covered wagons that had formed a protective circle.
The John Wayne movie I saw yesterday had come to life.
In a flash, the action vanished like a vacant
stage after the second bow. The magic carpet was abruptly gone. I felt
something poking my ribs. It was my Uncle Archie, nudging me with his
boot. I remember thinking his silhouette would not hold still, and his
face had four ears and two mouths. His nose was busy wandering about his
face. And how did he find me amongst these leaves?
The ride home went swiftly and there was no conversation.
Lights in houses flashed by like the passing of a midnight train. Abruptly,
I recognized my front porch with its painted wooden floor and the glider
nestled in its grapevine canopy. Archie lifted me inside the house. I
lay on the sofa, swooning like smoke from a winter chimney. My grandmother
came to my side. She towered above me, her face obscured in the dim light.
She seemed twelve feet tall.
No bathtub could contain
the amount of shame I bathed in that night. My grandmother made things
worse. There was no lecture, no scolding. There was only the look of hurt
on her face. I thought: what had become of my commitment to the Eternal
Rules? There I had been, drinking forbidden nectar and, worse, stealing
from some thirsty fisherman who returned to find but an empty potato sack.
The fisherman would have harsh words to say and no one there to hear.
Despite my misgivings the night before, there
indeed came a dawn. The sun was unusually bright as I sat at the breakfast
table with French toast and fresh strawberries. The admonishment I anticipated
with dread never came. My grandmother rushed about in her usual way before
Sunday services and my Uncle Archie arrived on time to drive us to First
Presbyterian. The incident was not mentioned and my place on the pew was
unusually comforting. Maybe I would survive my double-sin.
Brother Benchoff began his sermon like all Sundays
before, and his words whisked me back to the familiar. His voice began
to trail away as I lost myself in thought. As usual, the massive light
fixtures in the sanctuary were gently swaying, although there was no breeze.
To my right sat the Abney family and two pews in front were the Langtons.
The organist had moved from her place on the organ bench to one of the
choir seats so she could see. Across the aisle, Sonny Cox was being pinched
on the ear, a reminder to pay attention.
All things comfortable had returned. Events from
yesterday seemed but a dream. Did it happen at all? By that Sunday evening,
I knew that my world had re-adopted me and welcomed me home.
At six-thirty, Lassie came on the television.
Just like always.
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