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Chapter
1
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July 1899
The
early morning light filtered through the threadbare curtains at the window
of the tenement flat but for all the joy it brought the three young women
in the room at the dawning of a summer's day, it might as well have been
the dark of mid-winter. Engaged as they were in this most secret of tasks,
the darkness was already in their souls. As one tear-stained, matted-haired
woman writhed in agony on the bed, the second with her untrained, so-called
midwifery skills, struggled to bring into the world a reluctant baby,
and the third member of their conspiracy sat continuously chewing her
fingernails to the quick as if already doubting the wisdom of their actions.
As they all knew the pregnant woman had been
in the throes of her tortuous labour for what seemed to them an endless
age but which was in reality a little more than ten hours. Despite the
midwife's well-meaning but feeble efforts the baby was no nearer to making
his or her way into the waiting world. The constant urging to keep pushing
but to do so quietly lest her screams be heard by the bairns across the
landing in the neighbour's flat did even less to comfort the patient than
the regular mopping of her brow with a vinegar-soaked rag.
With the light gaining strength the appointments
of the room gradually became clearer - the black steel sink under the
window; the goose-necked cold water tap; the wax-cloth-covered table;
the mantelpiece with its regulation pair of wally dugs, brass candlesticks,
tea caddy, and overhanging gas mantle; the crammed to capacity pulley
with its array of vests, towels, nappies, and knickers; the home-made
wee creepie stool; the rather decrepit armchair into which the 'Heid o'
the Hoose' would slump when home between stints as an ocean going deckhand.
Just as the rays of the sun reached the recess
bed and the pain-wracked face of the young woman, with a final scream
and arching of her body, she finally expelled the burden she had carried
with her for nine long, weary months. What a hated burden it had been
for both her and her sister. For the final months and weeks of her pregnancy
Meg had ventured out only at night enveloped in an enormous, moth-eaten
shawl, while her sister, Nellie, had waddled round the streets of Bridgeton
and her already child-filled tenement home with a cushion tied to her
waist creating the supposed bump of a growing baby in her belly.
The self-styled midwife cleaned up the baby,
wrapped it in a crocheted shawl, and held out the latest bundle of humanity.
"There she is then, a bonnie wee baby."
When there was no reply, nor even as much as
answering smiles from her audience, Hannah persisted. "Weel, if naethin
else, surely between the pair o ye wi aw the fine planning ye've done,
surely tae God ye've at least thought up a name for the puir wee bastard."
As the harshness and bitter reality of this hated
word sounded in the stillness of the early morning somehow its echoes
seemed to hang in the air between them. Finally Nellie got slowly to her
feet and glaring at Hannah said in a voice low with menace: "Bastard?
Naethin o the kind. Don't you iver again use that hideous word referring
to that poor wee mite."
Hannah nodded and opened her mouth as if to speak,
but Nellie hadn't finished with her tirade.
"See her? See that wee scrap o humanity
- you can call her any first name ye like, but Ah'm tellin ye this: as
far as her surname goes
she'll bear ma husband's name, jist like
aw the rest of ma ither bairns. Dae ye understand?" Hannah nodded.
"Jist in case ye don't get the picture, frae this minute on ye keep
your silence - silent as the grave would jist aboot dae it."
Hannah locked glances with the red-faced Mrs
Nellie Bryden then slowly and deliberately rolled down her sleeves.
"Oh aye! That's one thing sure
Ah'll
no be saying a word tae naebody. Apart frae onythin else - and maybe ye
dinnae ken this, Mrs Know-it-all, but see the very minute ye gie false
details aboot an illegitimate bairn on any official document, like it
or lump it, ye will be breaking the law o the land, so ye will."
From the quick indrawn breath and the look on
Nellie's face Hannah grinned, taking it that her barb had struck home
and this was indeed news to Nellie.
"For all Ah ken the pair o youse might weel
end up in jail. So hae nae fear. Ah wouldnae want tae join ye. Frae this
day forrad ma lips is sealed."
Having completed her task to her own satisfaction,
the self-righteous Hannah turned and called back from the doorway: "As
far as a Christian name goes, why don't ye call her Becky? Ah had an auld
Aunt Becky and see her, talk aboot being lucky! Aye! She was that lucky
in everythin she touched in this life that folk used tae say o her that
if she fell in the Clyde she'd come up wi a gold watch. Aye! The name
Becky should dae that puir faitherless bairn jist fine. For let's face
it, if anybody ever needed a bit o luck in this life ye can take it frae
me it's gonnae be that puir wee innocent bastard."
With the noise of the slammed door still ringing
in their ears Nellie and Meg looked at each other and almost in unison
said: "Right! Becky Bryden it is."
Nellie bustled around the kitchen preparing a
pot of tea and said: "Right, Meg, one way and another, between the
pair o us, we've battled our way through this bit o bother jist fine and
dandy."
A wan-faced Meg nodded and, exhausted, fell back.
The pain and trauma of the night faded and she slipped into a dreamlike
state
Alex
Cartside was so much more sophisticated than anyone Meg had ever met before.
His polished manners and refined speech attracted her right from the very
first time she saw him standing at the podium lecturing the class on the
finer points of diction - "So necessary for a teacher to give a good
example to her pupils."
She was thrilled when in the second week he had
complimented her in front of the whole class on her excellent speech and
speaking voice. Their accidental meeting in Miss Cranston's on Sauchiehall
Street was the high point of the third week at the Normal School and she
readily agreed to his proposal that they meet at Kelvingrove Art Gallery.
There, he said, he could expand her horizon, discussing with her the excellent
art, and thus making her a better teacher.
The visit to the gallery was very pleasant and
at the afternoon tea which naturally followed Meg was charmed and readily
agreed to further meetings.
Miss Euphemia Edgar, the spinster teacher who
had taken Meg in when her parents died and with whom she still lived,
warned her against 'any romantic entanglement' which would end her career
in teaching. Meg had laughed. Alex was a lecturer at the Normal School,
a good ten years older than she; he was simply good-heartedly interested
in helping her become a better teacher.
However, as the meetings went on Meg was aware
that while still formal and proper Alex now occasionally held her hand
and once daringly put his arm round her waist. The first kiss in the twilight
walking in Kelvingrove Park startled but thrilled her and she found herself
kissing him back. Meg declined the next invitation, but Alex had pulled
her aside after class and apologised, saying he had been carried away
by the moment and that it wouldn't happen again. Their next meeting was
again formal but in subsequent meetings they moved to amorous caresses
and before Meg stopped to think they were in his rooms and it was too
late to think.
In mid-November she discovered she was pregnant.
Alex's response to the news shocked her. He implied that she, a woman
of loose morals, couldn't possibly be sure the baby was his, and that
anyway he was moving back in with his wife from whom he had had a temporary
separation. He was resigning his post at the Normal School and taking
up a similar post in Canada in the New Year.
Meg left Miss Edgar's comfortable home saying
her older sister needed her and she moved in with Nellie.
Later
that day after copious amounts of tea Nellie sighed.
"Why on earth ye had tae gie everythin away
like that, it fair beats me. Honest tae God the mair Ah think aboot it,
the angrier and mair het-up Ah get. Tae think o aw the chances ye had
that Ah niver even got a look at
ye were clever; ye got tae stay
on at school efter Maw and Paw died and that dried up auld spinster o
an English teacher wi the posh talk and stuff took ye in. Ye even got
tae begin yer training for tae be a schoolteacher. A schoolteacher by
God - and then
"
Meg eased herself up on the bed and reached out
a detaining hand.
"Och, Nellie, don't. Please don't go on
and on about it."
Nellie brushed Meg's hand aside and shouted:
"Och, Nellie, nothin. This is somethin Ah hae tae say and God help
me Ah will say it. It makes me fair boil wi rage when Ah think how bloody
stupid ye've been. Where were aw yer brilliant brains then when ye were
daeing the business wi him? Was aw yer high intellect and yer high-falutin
manners doon therr skeeterin aboot in yer knickers?"
Meg's face became even paler and she gasped.
Seeing the effect of her diatribe on her sister,
Nellie relented somewhat.
"Och, listen, hen, what's done cannae be
undone but wi yer lover by noo over the seas tae the colonies tae escape
his responsibilities, God alone knows what on earth ye'll dae noo. But
one thing Ah dae ken. Ye'll no be able tae stay here in ma hoose. Ma ain
tribe o bairns will be back frae across the landing the morn's morn and
Ah'll need tae introduce them tae their new wee sister Becky. Apart frae
onythin else ma man could be arriving back frae the high seas any day
noo. He's gonnae be surprised enough tae see another new bairn - although
mind you the way he went on at the hochmagandie on his last leave it shouldnae
be as big a surprise."
Meg blushed at her sister's use of the coarse
old Scotch word for intercourse. "It was fortunate that this trip
took him away for just over the nine months."
Nellie snorted. "Rab will deal aw right
wi another mewling wean, but the one thing he couldnae stomach is your
fancy Kelvinside speechifying, yer prissy manners, and yer high-falutin
ideas. Naw, naw. Rab jist couldnae deal wi a high and mighty lady o quality
such as ye've turned intae over the years. So ye'd better start thinking
aboot where it is ye're gonna be living, since ye cannae see yersel back
wi yer teacher freen, and ye havenae the ghost o an idea as tae whit ye're
gonnae dae tae earn an honest crust."
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