1986: not so very long ago. But things were different. The USSR, Czechoslovakia
and the old Yugoslavia were still shown on maps. Inequalities in the age
of consent persisted despite the ever-increasing powers of the European
Union which went by a different name. And people still had record collections.
It was the year Argentina won the World Cup in
Mexico, Today was launched, and the Greater London Council abolished.
It was a year of explosions: Chernobyl, Challenger and the Stockmarket's
less earth-shattering 'Big Bang'.
And trains were still run by British Rail.
He
got to the departures board just in time to see the indicator for the
train he'd hoped to catch being removed. The next one wasn't up on the
board yet, so he waited.
His glance fell on a young man standing a few
yards away. Everyone else was either staring, mesmerised, at the notice
board or walking purposefully along the concourse, but he was looking
towards the shops at the rear of the station. Just the usual: a chemist's,
a stationer's, and a café together with signs indicating Tickets,
Travel Centre, Underground.
David stared at him for a moment and then turned
back to the board. After a few minutes, David decided he might as well
have a cup of tea while he was waiting, as it would be at least half an
hour before the next train was due.
He'd bought himself some tea and a couple of
sandwiches, and found a free table, when a party of Italians entered.
They bought coffee and were looking around, wondering where to sit.
As they debated loudly in their own language,
the young man who, earlier, had been on the station concourse, stood up
and gestured to them that they could sit at the table he'd been occupying.
They nodded their thanks while he moved to a
seat opposite David. As the din from the next table, now surrounded by
Italians - six seated and another three standing - erupted, the two Englishmen
exchanged brief smiles of amused tolerance.
David immersed himself in his book, but after
a few minutes he became aware that he was being stared at. Surely the
man opposite wasn't trying to pick him up? After all, it was still early
and Waterloo, of all the London termini, was scarcely renowned for that
sort of thing. Besides, he hadn't looked as if Still, how could
you tell?
Eventually he looked up and realised with relief
that he'd been wrong. The young man's interest was obviously fixed on
the sandwich on David's plate, but he had the grace to look away when
he saw David had noticed.
A few minutes later, a middle-aged woman pushing
a trolley appeared, collected a cup that had been there when David had
arrived, appeared to dismiss the idea of wiping the table and asked David
if he'd finished with his plate.
He had.
"If you don't want it "
But the woman had already swept the plate from
the table, tipped its contents into a small bin, stacked the plate on
the pile on her trolley, and moved on to the next table.
David looked at his unknown companion with renewed
curiosity. "I'm sorry. I hadn't realised you were hungry. You were
welcome to it."
The young man, or boy, really - David decided
he could be no more than twenty-one, and might easily be several years
younger - smiled self-consciously.
"Probably a lucky escape. After all, it
was a British Rail sandwich."
But there was something in his eyes that led
David to believe he was sorry the woman hadn't heard him.
David glanced at his watch, and then at the indicator
board where he saw the sign "Train Cancelled" in red letters.
Already there were more people milling about the concourse, those waiting
for delayed or cancelled trains joined by new arrivals. Time for another
cup of tea, he thought with the sort of philosophy that comes to all delayed
travellers.
At least he didn't have to put up with this day
in, day out as the regular commuters did. Still, perhaps they were used
to it, hardened by years of unexplained delays. Had it been like this
in 1848 when Waterloo Bridge, as it then was, opened? He'd come up to
London today, Friday, to visit some bookshops. His father was a keen reader,
and David had inherited his love of books.
David stood up, went over to the counter, and
bought more insipid-looking tea.
He returned to the same table and found its occupant
watching the trolley lady wipe the surface with a cloth that had seen
better days.
David waited for her to finish.
At last, he was able to sit down and push a cup
of coffee and a pre-packed cheese sandwich across the table.
"I didn't " the young man began
to protest. "I can't pay you."
"It's all right."
They looked at each other.
"Thanks." And he smiled as if it was
the nicest thing to have happened to him for a long time. Perhaps it was.
He had been hungry. David could see that from
the way he'd eaten the sandwich, hardly chewing it at all, and from his
surprise when he'd realised he'd finished it so quickly. And then his
face had become serious as if he would have rationed himself if he'd thought
about it earlier.
"When did you last eat?" David asked.
"Yesterday," came the reply, accompanied
by a brief smile to show it wasn't that bad.
"Haven't you got any money?"
The boy's face registered a slight struggle before
he answered. "Yes, but I'm saving it for an emergency."
Their eyes met, and suddenly both grinned as
it crossed their minds that if being hungry didn't constitute an emergency
then what did?
"I can buy you another sandwich if you're
still hungry," David offered.
"No, it's all right. Thanks, though."
"Don't you have a job?"
The boy shook his head. "I was working in
a hotel, but that was only part time so I thought I'd come to London.
I'm not sure I want to work here but beggars " he smiled at
the word " can't be choosers."
They continued talking. When David next looked
at his watch, he found he'd been so absorbed that he'd missed his next
train. Still, he was in no hurry and, much as he liked books, he was intrigued
by his companion's story.
The boy hadn't spoken to anyone in two days and
he liked having someone to talk to for a change. Funny how the more people
there were, the less they spoke to each other. Perhaps you had to be more
careful to preserve your own space, your own identity.
"It's expensive, living in London,"
David agreed. When there was no reply, he asked: "You have got somewhere
to stay?"
"Not yet."
"So what will you do tonight?" It was
too late to do much, he thought.
"Well, the same as last night, I suppose.
Stay here as long as I can and hope I can get some sleep." He hoped
he sounded more blasé than he felt. "I feel a bit of a fraud.
It's only my second night, after all. Some people have been sleeping rough
for months, even years." His eyes looked bleak, and then he smiled.
"Anyway, thanks for the coffee. Here's to another night on a crowded
platform."
While David went back to an empty house. Stupid,
wasn't it?
He'd spoken aloud, and they avoided each other's
eyes, each suddenly uncomfortable.
You couldn't just ask for a bed for the night,
no matter how much you needed one.
You couldn't just offer a bed for the night,
no matter how much you sympathised with someone.
They had spoken together for some time, but they
were still strangers.
They went back to discussing neutral subjects.
David talked about books, and his companion told him some of the funny
things that had happened or he'd heard about in the hotel he'd worked
in. They relaxed again.
The café had filled up in the meantime.
Disgruntled office workers moaned about another day of train disruption,
while others resigned themselves to a long wait. A few muttered about
wasting money on tarting up the buildings rather than sorting out the
trains. Indeed, it was a very curious thing: it was as if, by painting
the stations red, the passengers would fail to notice the late arrival
of their trains.
When David next looked at the departures board,
he decided he ought to be making a move if he planned to get home that
night.
"I'd better go," he said, standing
up.
"It's been nice having someone to talk to,"
his companion said disarmingly. He suddenly looked about fifteen and very
lost.
"Me, too. Goodbye, then."
"Bye," the young man said reluctantly.
David turned towards the door. He always wondered
afterwards what made him do it. Perhaps the same impulse that had prompted
him to buy the coffee.
"Look," he said, rather abruptly, turning
back. "If you've really got nowhere to go, you could stay at my parents'
house. For a few days at any rate."
"Where d'you live?"
David told him.
There was a long pause, during which he had no
idea what was going through the other person's mind. Eventually, though,
the boy said: "I suppose it must be cheaper than London. It's as
good a place as any to look for a job. All right."
Back on the platform, they checked the board
again. This time, to David's relief, there was a platform number shown
against his train which was due to leave in just under ten minutes' time.
"How much is the fare?"
David told him.
"Oh."
"Here." David took out his wallet but
couldn't find anything smaller than a twenty pound note.
"Thanks." The eyes were suddenly wary.
"Are you gay?"
Despite all the people there - ticket collectors,
commuters, vendors - it was as if they were suddenly alone.
David hesitated for a moment. "Yes."
It was a fair question given the circumstances. He objected to the implication,
but he'd probably have asked the same question if he'd been in the boy's
shoes. And would have refused the offer, too. "I'm sorry - it was
a stupid idea. You're right to be careful."
The boy held out the twenty for David to take
back. He looked oddly disappointed.
"No, keep it. Find somewhere safe to stay
tonight." David smiled, and ignored his own feeling of disappointment.
"Thanks." The boy was grateful and
something else. Surprised? His faith in humanity restored?
"Well, I'd better go. Time and British Rail
wait for no man."
They looked at each other, then David added softly:
"Take care." He turned and walked away towards the platform.
The young man stared after him, still with the
money in his hand. He was undecided for over a minute, then he turned
abruptly and made his way across the recently cleaned station concourse.
David sat on the train, trying to read. He wondered
why he'd made such an offer. Concern? Sympathy? A feeling of empathy?
He wished his offer had been accepted. He had been offering only somewhere
to stay, nothing else, but who in this day and age is prepared to believe
such an innocent motive? It was a pity. He could have done with some company.
He glanced up as someone sat down opposite him.
"I changed my mind. Is it still all right?"
Anxious eyes searched David's face for his reaction.
David smiled, glad to see the boy. "Yes.
My name's David Rees, by the way."
"Rob Greenaway. Here's your change."
"It's all right. Keep it."
Rob hesitated, then put the money away.
Suddenly there was nothing to say.
The seats next to them were soon taken as commuters
spilled out from the mouth of the staircase which led from the tube train
platform - where forty-year-old Waterloo & City rolling stock still
laboured from Waterloo to Bank and back - on to the platform itself. Then
there was an announcement requesting passengers to close all doors as
the train was ready to depart. The grille at the top of the stairs was
closed, leaving latecomers to watch impotently as their train pulled away
without them. At the end of the platform, a few hardy train-spotters jotted
down numbers in notebooks. Behind them, they left the NatWest Tower and,
on the other side, the Post Office Tower.
Rob looked out of the window while David kept
his eyes fixed on the page he was supposedly reading. Why on earth had
he suggested this? He didn't know anything about the boy. He could have
lied about his name. He could be a thief. He could be mentally unstable.
He could be violent. It wasn't even David's house, it was his parents'.
They would never have believed he could be so irresponsible. How would
he explain having invited a stranger into their home?
He glanced up, just in time to notice Rob look
away. He realised Rob was probably thinking along similar lines. After
all, he knew nothing of David either, except that he was gay. You weren't
likely to lie about that. Christ! You'd have to be desperate to accept
under those circumstances. David suddenly felt sorry for him. Surely he
was too young to be living rough?
"How old are you?"
"Nineteen. Why?"
"I just wondered." He looked down again
at his book. He'd been at university when he was nineteen, not accepting
a cup of coffee from a complete stranger. He wondered whether Rob's parents
knew where he was. Surely they'd help if they knew he didn't have any
money? Why hadn't he asked them? David supposed there'd been a row. Just
because he got on well with his parents didn't mean everyone did. Jeremy
and his parents didn't, for a start. Judging from what Jeremy said, his
parents were pig-headed; and, as for Jeremy, well, he didn't exactly bother
about meeting people half-way. David's own mother had made a few choice
remarks about him. His mother had never really understood why David and
Jeremy remained firm friends; and David thought his father probably suspected
there was more than just friendship between them. It was one of life's
little ironies: the only close gay friend David had, and he didn't want
anything other than friendship even though Jeremy had often suggested
more. Mostly he'd been joking. David thought that, on the whole, Jeremy
was probably as realistic as he was about things - they were too different
in most ways and too similar in others ever to be compatible in the long
term.
He watched as a fellow traveller across the aisle
struggled with a window that was letting in the chilly autumn air. Eventually
the exasperated man banged on the metal lip, pulled down the window and
then quickly pushed it up again with all his strength, this time managing
to shut it.
Perhaps he'd better not ask about Rob's parents.
Perhaps they'd asked him to leave.
Why, oh why, had he suggested Rob stay at his
house?
He told himself he was being stupid. Until Rob
had got on the train, David had been wishing he'd accepted his offer.
As soon as he had, David had begun to wish he hadn't! David had said he
could stay for a few days - how did he think Rob was going to find somewhere
else so soon? What was he going to do if Rob couldn't find a job or anywhere
else to stay - drive him back to Waterloo so he could sleep rough again?
Cardboard City was no place for anyone, let alone someone still in their
teens. It would be winter before long - how on earth did people keep warm
and get enough to eat when they were homeless and jobless? But why should
David go out of his way to help Rob? He knew nothing about him. They probably
had nothing in common and David would find his life totally disrupted.
And that was ignoring the likely awkwardness of the situation. He'd scarcely
be able to get straight out of the bath and then go into his bedroom to
get dressed in case he met - and embarrassed - Rob on the landing. He
wouldn't be able to call the house his own any more. Still, at least he
had a home, he thought, putting aside his own worries for a moment.
Straight, light brown hair, direct blue eyes
and a pleasant face - Rob didn't look like a thief, especially when you
remembered that he'd innocently admitted having some money and that he'd
tried to return David's to him. Neither did he look unstable - a little
nervous, perhaps, but that was understandable. He didn't look as if he'd
be dangerous either; of the two of them, David thought himself the stronger.
Although a few years older, he knew from his games of squash that he was
fit, and Rob still had the slightness of youth. He could always hide the
carving knife, David thought, smiling to himself. Or, if he got really
paranoid, put it under his pillow.
"Where d'you come from?"
The train was just pulling out of a station and
the seats next to each of them had been vacated, making conversation easier.
Rob told him, a little uneasily.
"I've been through there, but I don't really
know it."
"It's quite a nice place to live. Less built
up than down here. What's your parents' house like?"
"Oh, detached. Quite a large garden when
you compare it with those of the houses they build nowadays. A fairly
quiet road. I've lived there since I was eight. I like it."
"What about work? Are there plenty of jobs
around?"
"I think so. I mean, there often seem to
be notices at the Job Centre or in shop windows. There's supposed to be
a shortage of school-leavers. But then they said a few years ago that
we were going to have more leisure now that computers could do so much
but that didn't seem to happen. Apart from the people who couldn't find
a job and had too much." He smiled. "What sort of job did you
want?"
Rob shrugged. "Oh, anything. The hotel I
worked in was nothing special - long hours and poor pay. The staff were
friendly, though. What do you do?"
"I work in an office." David mentioned
the company's name, but Rob hadn't heard of it.
"Have you been there long?"
"About six years. Before that I worked somewhere
else for a year, but I didn't really enjoy it so I moved."
"And now?"
"Yes, I'm happy where I am. I wouldn't stay
if I wasn't."
They smiled at each other, then Rob turned his
attention to the passing countryside, where the dying leaves were shades
of bright yellow and dry brown with the occasional fiery red, and David
went back to his book.
After about ten minutes, he looked up, too. "Next
stop," he said as they sped past a station whose name Rob didn't
have time to read.
"D'you live near the station?"
"About ten minutes' drive."
The train began to slow, and David unconsciously
stretched. It must be a trigger mechanism, he thought, smiling to himself.
Like when a film has finished and the lights come on.
Rob yawned.
"Tired?"
Rob nodded.
"Well, you should be able to catch up on
your sleep tonight."
People nearby were putting on coats and collecting
briefcases from luggage racks or from spaces between the seats. Commuters
apparently sound asleep suddenly opened their eyes and stretched. Others
moved through the carriage so that they could alight as near to the ticket
barrier as possible.
David fished out his ticket and closed his book.
"What are you reading?"
"To Kill a Mockingbird."
"That was a film, wasn't it?"
"Mmm. Gregory Peck, I think."
"Who wrote it?"
"Harper Lee. A woman," he added, as
the name didn't seem to mean anything to Rob.
"What's it about?"
"Childhood, I suppose. She reminds you of
things you'd nearly forgotten. It's strange how much your perspective
changes as you grow older." He got to his feet.
As he followed David off the train and then out
of the station, Rob was seized with doubts. He hesitated by the car, then
he got in.
Was he completely lacking in common sense? To
accept a complete stranger's offer of a bed for a few days? Especially
when that stranger had admitted he was gay.
He must be out of his mind. It must be safer
spending the night in London where he'd at least be with other people.
Safety in numbers.
Why had David kept looking at him on the train,
and then avoiding his eyes? Why had he asked him his age? Had he intended
handing him over to the police if he was too young, or had he hoped Rob
was over the age of consent? Would he be deterred that Rob wasn't twenty-one
yet?
Telling himself that David's open admission was
evidence of good faith didn't help reassure him; neither did the fact
that, despite being alone in a car with him, David hadn't attempted anything.
Oh God! he thought, suddenly realising that David
might have jumped to conclusions and interpreted his acceptance to mean
that he was willing to sleep with him for the sake of a roof over his
head. No wonder he hadn't bothered to try anything in the car, when he
probably thought he was onto a sure thing.
By the time the car drew to a halt and David
announced this was it, Rob was in a state of panic.
He stared at the house - it looked solid and
well-cared for, mellow brick, a shiny, blue front door with four panes
of glass at the top, large, white-framed windows, all seemingly innocuous
- and made no attempt to get out. Hoping to gain some time, he said: "I
didn't think it would be so big." Christ, he thought, he couldn't
have said anything that had more sexual overtones if he'd tried!
"It's my parents', really. They're abroad."
"So it's just you living there." He
swallowed and gave no indication of any desire to move from where he was.
"Got everything?" David asked.
Rob nodded, unable to speak. They got out of
the car and walked to the front door.
As David looked for his key, Rob blurted out:
"Look, I don't know -" and stopped abruptly.
David, not having paid much attention to him
while he'd been driving, suddenly realised Rob was worried about something.
"Why don't you phone someone and let them
know where you are?" he suggested. "There's a phone box on the
corner, and you'll be able to see the name of the road from there."
Although it was only just beginning to get dark, the street lights were
already on.
Rob considered the idea. Who could he call? There
was no one.
He shook his head. "No, it's all right,"
he said miserably.
"I'm not Jack the Ripper," David assured
him.
Was he just a Good Samaritan? Rob wondered. "I
suppose not." As he shut the door behind him, Rob wondered what he
was letting himself in for.
"I'll
make some coffee," David said, talking his coat off and hanging it
on a hook in a hall that must have been at least twice the size of that
in Rob's parents' house. "Is that all you've got?" He was looking
at the small holdall Rob had just put down.
"No, I've got some things in a left-luggage
locker. I can go back for them tomorrow." It would be an excuse,
if he needed one, to leave.
They went into the lounge, where David put down
his book, and Rob looked about him.
It was a pleasant room. Although most of the
furniture was obviously expensive, nothing seemed ostentatious and everything
looked comfortable. It was a room that was lived in.
It felt like a nice house, he thought, following
David through to the kitchen, which was warm and reminded him how hungry
and how tired he was.
He sat down at the kitchen table, and then stood
up again to take off his coat. Although the room was full of gleaming
pots and pans and electrical appliances, he smiled as he noticed some
unwashed dishes by the sink.
"I didn't get round to doing those before
I left," David admitted, noticing what had attracted Rob's attention.
"No dishwasher?" He looked about, apparently
trying to sort out the various gadgets.
"Yes, over there, but it doesn't seem worth
it when there's just me. When my parents are at home, we use it. Dad works
in America a lot, and my mother usually goes with him now. He started
working overseas when I was about fifteen, but my mother stayed here until
I left school. No," he corrected himself: "No, she didn't go
with him until after Holly, our Labrador, died."
They both smiled at the thought that David's
mother had viewed the dog with at least equal concern.
For a moment, Rob believed once more that David's
motives weren't as suspect as he'd imagined.
"Would you like a biscuit?" David asked.
"Yes, please." He took a chocolate
digestive from the tin David held out. Biscuits had become luxury items.
"How old are you?" Rob asked.
"Twenty-eight."
Somehow that worried Rob. He'd thought him younger.
"Why are you still living at home?"
he said with the directness of youth.
David grinned. "Various reasons. I get on
well with my parents, they need someone to look after the house when they're
away, I've never " He stopped, amazed to find himself about
to say that he'd never met anyone he'd wanted to live with. Only minutes
ago, he'd been thinking of Rob simply as someone he'd been fool enough
to invite to his home; now it was as if they were back in the anonymous
intimacy of the café at Waterloo. "I've never wanted to move,"
he finished lamely.
"There's really only one bedroom you can
have," he said, changing the subject. "We've got four, but one's
just used for storing things in and as a rather cramped study."
"Oh, anything's better than sleeping on
a bench. Or not sleeping at all. You don't appreciate a roof over your
head until there isn't one." Despite its being hot, he drank the
coffee quickly.
"D'you want some more?" David offered.
"No, thanks."
"I'll finish this and then I'll show you
the room."
Upstairs, David pointed out the bathroom to Rob,
and then opened the door of the spare bedroom.
"Well, here we are."
Rob stepped inside.
It was much larger than his bedroom at home.
It was mostly blue - light blue walls, dark blue curtains and carpet,
and the patterned duvet cover contained blues and mauves. The furniture
was mostly white - a white bedside table, white wardrobe, a white chest
near the window with a blue and green rug thrown over it - though there
was an obviously old brown chair in one corner.
David was saying something about putting the
radiator on, when Rob looked at the bed and froze.
He turned to David, his eyes hard. "It's
a double bed," he said very quietly. "Look, when I changed my
mind about coming here I didn't mean that I intended " He stopped,
not wanting to put his fears into words.
"Neither did I," retorted David, beginning
to lose his temper at the unjustness of the accusation when he was in
fact trying to do someone a good turn. "But the only single bed in
the house is in my room and I'm damned if I'm giving it up. If it's not
to your liking, you can sleep on the sofa." His anger died as quickly
as it had come when he took in Rob's expression. He hadn't realised the
kid was petrified. He was only young, after all. Perhaps this was the
last straw.
"I'm sorry," he went on. "But,
honestly, this is the only room you can have."
He could see the struggle reflected in Rob's
face as he tried to make up his mind whether to believe him. Perhaps at
the station someone had tried to pick him up and now he was wary. It was
an unusual situation, to say the least, and he could hardly be blamed
for expecting the worst.
Rob looked round the room again. It was a nice
room. Not too fussy or cluttered, not so recently decorated as to feel
more like a show piece than somewhere you could feel comfortable. Why
did he have to make such a fuss? If David was sincere, Rob was surprised
he hadn't been thrown out of the house in view of his remark. And if he
wasn't? It didn't bear thinking about. What alternative was there, anyway?
"Is there a key?" he asked at last.
"What?"
"To the door. Is there a key?" He stared
at the empty keyhole as if one would materialise. At least he could try
to minimise the risks, he thought. Perhaps he could barricade himself
inside.
"I'm not sure. There might be one downstairs.
I can have a look."
"It's a nice room," Rob conceded slowly.
He put his bag down at last. He'd made his decision. He'd made his bed,
he thought wryly. "Thank you."
"I'll make us something to eat. You're welcome
to have a look round the house or watch television." Now that it
came to it, David didn't quite know what to do with his guest.
"Could I have a bath?" ventured Rob.
"Yes, of course. I'll find you a towel."
"And could I use the washing-machine? Someone
spilled beer over me last night."
"That's all right. Leave everything you
want washed outside the bathroom and I'll put them in for you. You can
borrow a dressing-gown," he added.
Rob balked at the idea of a dressing-gown: he
would have felt vulnerable. "Could you lend me some clothes instead?
Just a pair of trousers and a pullover, I mean."
They were about the same height. "Yes, OK,"
David agreed. From his room he got an old, but clean, pullover and a pair
of trousers he'd not worn much. He gave them, together with a towel taken
from the airing cupboard, to Rob.
"The water's been on since six, so it should
be hot. Supper won't be ready for at least half an hour so you should
have plenty of time. If you leave your clothes outside, they can be washed
tonight and dry by tomorrow."
"Thanks." Rob smiled awkwardly and
closed the bathroom door behind him. The bathroom was pleasant, with its
relaxing warmth and restful green walls and tiles. A plant whose name
he didn't know cascaded from a high ledge. He thought he'd better wash
his hair, too, so he opened a cabinet and searched for some shampoo. There
was a mirror on the cabinet door. He looked at his reflection as if he
hoped he could see his future. He turned away. He was being fanciful.
After fetching some clean sheets and leaving
them in the spare room, David went downstairs and searched for something
to eat. He'd been intending to have fish, but there wasn't enough for
two. He found a couple of pork chops in the freezer so he took those out
and defrosted them in the microwave.
The potatoes he peeled and put in a saucepan
to boil, while the chops he put under a low grill.
Then he took out some frozen peas, put enough
for the two of them in another saucepan, but didn't light the gas as they
wouldn't take long to cook.
Upstairs he found Rob's discarded clothes, a
pair of socks being the most intimate item Rob had chosen to leave outside
the bathroom door, which he took downstairs and put in the washing-machine.
He'd set the table in the dining room, opened
a bottle of wine and was doing the washing-up from that morning when Rob
reappeared. David didn't hear him enter.
"I used some shampoo - I hope you don't
mind."
"No, of course not." David dried his
hands and turned round.
He was unprepared for the sudden rush of desire
he felt. Rob stood there, his hair still damp, his feet bare, smiling
a little self-consciously. Perhaps the fact that he was wearing David's
clothes made David feel some sort of intimacy.
David hurriedly turned towards the cooker before
Rob noticed. "Why don't you go and sit down? I've just got to do
the peas and then we can eat."
"OK." Rob went out and David busied
himself with supper, trying to put all wayward thoughts out of his mind.
Rob had, although luckily David was unaware of
the fact, registered the effect his presence had had on David; but he'd
also realised David's profound confusion and the way he'd dealt with the
problem. In a way, he supposed, it was a compliment. But it was also a
complication.
By the time he'd dished up, David was in control
of his emotions again.
He carried the plates into the lounge and then
poured out a glass of wine for each of them. He decided that he'd better
not offer to replenish Rob's glass in case it looked as though he was
trying to get him drunk.
Rob looked at the table - the full plates, the
shining cutlery, the wine - and the room, and for a second he was close
to tears. Reaction setting in, he told himself, trying to pull himself
together, to the sudden change from being homeless. Utterly ridiculous;
he'd slept rough only one night. It must be the prospect of continuing
to sleep rough.
"Are you all right?" David asked as
Rob just sat there, not eating. Was he a vegetarian? Surely he'd have
said if he was?
"Yes, I'm fine." Rob picked up his
knife and fork and began to eat.
"Oh, I found the key, by the way. I put
it in the lock."
"Thanks."
"I think some of the keys are interchangeable,
though. I'm sure I remember my cousin locking himself in when he was young,
and Mum and Dad finding another key to the door. But I'm not sure which
room that was. Oh, that reminds me - I usually turn the burglar alarm
on at night. It's connected to the front and back door, and to some of
the downstairs windows."
Rob
ate hungrily.
David, trying to make him feel more at ease,
talked about work.
"Would you like something else to drink?"
he asked eventually, as Rob had taken only a sip of wine. "There's
some orange juice in the fridge."
"Yes. Thanks."
David went out to the kitchen, got another glass,
poured some orange juice into it, and then returned.
"I'm not really used to wine," Rob
explained apologetically, accepting the glass David offered. "Thanks."
He drank the orange juice quickly.
After they'd finished eating, Rob looked up awkwardly.
"I'm sorry if I offended you earlier. It's just I don't know
you."
"That's OK." David grinned. "Honestly,
the only thing you need worry about is whether or not I defrosted the
pork chops properly."
Rob looked at him, assessing what he'd said,
and then suddenly he smiled and his face lit up.
For a moment David was engulfed, not by the desire
he'd felt earlier, but by a bitter-sweet longing for something intangible.
"Anyway," he continued more soberly, "you'd have to be
mad nowadays to sleep with someone you didn't know."
"Almost as mad as inviting a total stranger
to your house," Rob joked a little warily.
David grinned. "Mmm. I can't say I didn't
have second thoughts."
"Just say if you'd prefer me to go."
Although what he'd have done in a strange place at this hour, he had no
idea.
"No. You're welcome to stay."
"Thanks."
David stood up. "I'm going to make a cup
of coffee. Would you like some?"
Rob nodded.
While they drank their coffee, David noticed
that Rob could hardly keep his eyes open. His head would start to nod
and then jerk back as he tried to stay awake, whether from politeness
or just putting off going to bed, David didn't know.
"Why don't you go to bed?" suggested
David gently, although it wasn't late.
"What about the things in the washing-machine?"
"Oh, I'll see to those. Don't worry."
"Thanks." Rob put down his empty cup
and stood up. His eyes searched David's face. David wondered what he saw.
"Have you got everything you need? I left
some sheets in your room."
"Yes." He looked young and shy again.
"Well, goodnight, then."
David smiled. "Goodnight."